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Music Monday: Not Again

This week's Music Monday is the song "Not Again" by Staind. It is a new song that has been out for a couple weeks. But I really just caught onto it early last week.

My training schedule for my marathon is set. No problem there. The problem has been adjusting to everybody else's new schedule and everything else life throws at me. The first week did not go nearly as well as I wanted. It was so busy that I didn't really get a chance to do everything I wanted. The second week went well but ended with a "bad" long run. Last week was my third week, which had my one year old sick on the two most important days of my training. I had a 5k on Saturday and needed my harder workouts on Tuesday and Wednesday.

Now I am not complaining about things not going my way, I know how to handle that. In fact I have a blog post that I need to finish right now about being flexible with your training schedule but I have been too busy to write it. Because I have been being flexible.

The problem is that somewhere on that "bad" long run I started to lose confidence. It was a 10 miler and pretty much everything that could go wrong went wrong. My water bottles kept coming out of my water belt, I had to stop to use the restroom, a couple of old ladies stopped me asking for directions just as I was starting to gain some momentum. Little stuff like that derailed me from staying confident and having a good run. I started to question myself and actually walked a few times. Basically throwing my own little pity party.

When I really listened to this song it made my blood boil. For me the song is about the inner struggle I was having. I was losing confidence because I was letting myself fall into that place of self doubt and weakness that is never any fun.

Music is my one thing I can go to and figure myself out. This song came around at the perfect time. It is a little heavier than some of my previous Music Monday songs. But it is THE song I have been using this week to get back to the cocky, arrogant, nice guy you all love so much. Maybe this song or some of the music you like can help you get through those tough times.

Enjoy!



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