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Music Monday: Fall To Pieces

This week's Music Monday is "Fall to Pieces" by Velvet Revolver.

This is a very special song for me. It is a song that reminds me of how I have always handled my father's death. I have always been someone who would not really share what is bothering me. This is especially true when it comes to talking about this.

My father passed when I was nine so I really had a hard time dealing with it as a kid/teenager/adult. I could always talk to my mother or my sister but I felt the need to deal with it on my own. As I got older it was even harder dealing with it. I remember a couple of times as a young adult when I just completely broke down when talking about it. (If you were one of those people that I confided in, thank you for listening.)

The chorus - "Every time I'm falling down, All alone I fall to pieces" - struck me the first time I heard it. It really captures that feeling that I had for so many years. The feeling of keeping everything inside and dealing with it internally. I knew I had people to talk to. I just wanted to face it alone.

The first few times I hear a song like this I wonder why I torture myself. These songs bring up emotions that are not always pleasant. However, once I really get to hear the song over and over it is a very therapeutic feeling. Almost like a sense of relief that there is someone who can put into words exactly how I feel. So technically I don't actually "fall alone." I always have my music to catch me and help me through these emotions.

Enjoy!



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